Feeling

15 of March 2014

Feeling?? yeah thats about my feeling. I'm start know him from wechat .Actually we are study at the same place also same place of national service 2011. we start our conversation from day to day. For the first, just mindset nak berkawan saje. But, eventually i have some feeling to him. I start to like him. Maybe dia boleh ngam dengan aku.Menipu sangat la kan kalau xde ape feeling pada lelaki yg every single day chat dengan kita kan. Siap boleh lepak dinner then pagi esoknya breakfast sesame. Crazy right!!. Kenyataan tu timbul bila housemate sendiri kata "korang berdua ni memang x nampak macam kawan. macam something happen behind that". Secara menipunya aku memang tak caya yang aku ade something feeling dengan die. But when i'm thinking back again and again. ecece. ayat tak nak kalah. heee

Yes!! what are their saying is TRUE. Becos when die x chat aku i feel missing,boring, need him to talk, nak lepak sesama and etc lah weyh…tapi tapi aku ego nak accept kenyataan yang aku dah suka kat kau dah jatuh sayang kat kau.hmm..Wahh!! hebat pengaruh kau ni. Pakai miyak dagu cap ape ni sampai aku angau dengan kau huh?? jawab cepat jawab. biasa ni!! Nak mintak kau bertanggungjawab ats kesalahan ni.

Okey okey okey. Memang nak berterus terang tapi i'm feeling shy/ ego sebenarnye sebab takut kecewa. so keep that into my heart until now. Walaupun orang cakap kalau simpan lama lama nanti kecewa. What can i say is "Itu je mampu. sebab i memang malu nak berterus terang, takut bertepuk sebelah tangan je kan". Maybe one day i will talk to him face to face what i'm feel to him.*melting habis aku kalau direct terung terang* Not just as a freind but more then freind. EHH!! heee. When i get ready lah. kena ada strength dari segi fizikal dengan mental. Almost two years feeling macam ni dah lost. and now it come again. aigooo.